My life right now feels like that moment in Jenga when you make one wrong move and everything comes tumbling down.

Everything’s a mess, everyone’s a mess… Who do you turn to when everyone is in the same hell as you?

Do you just sit there, swallowing your words, forcing your mouth shut?

Well, I tried, but feelings eventually do find a way to surface, to come out and show themselves, and sometimes, it’s not in the best of ways…

I feel like a rose, an ugly faded one, but the thorns are as sharp as ever… The thorns were supposed to protect me from getting plucked, from getting used, from getting hurt.. But lately, they’ve been pricking even the people who come to look after me, to water me and take care of me, maybe even restore me back to my beautiful state…

The thorns were meant for self-defense, not self-destruction…

The thought of cutting them off is welcoming, but then I’m reminded of what made them grow in the first place…

I don’t want to be this way, I don’t want to be bitter and sad, I don’t want to hurt the ones I love, but I can’t seem to stop…

And every day, I shrink a little more, I fade a little more, I die a little more,

Cuz it’s not just the others I’m hurting, I’m hurting myself too.

And so, before I turn into a dead old ugly rose, I’m asking you, begging you not to stop tending me, not to stop watering me…

You’re pretty much the only thing keeping me alive…

I promise, one day I will become fresh once again, one day I will bloom, like never before, I’ll bloom to the fullest… And when that day comes, I’ll make sure you don’t regret having been there… But until then, I need you…

So, stay with me?

 

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Asha Dsouza
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Asha Dsouza

Whoa! Beautiful!!!

Hannah Gigi
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Hannah Gigi

So beautifully constructed… Deep emotions well phrased

Kaushik
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Kaushik

So Deep!!

Lekhraj
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Lekhraj

Excellent words. In a wierd way I can get a sense of direction from your story. Loved it. ♥️